3/07/2026 - 8:02pm
friday!! yaaay!! i'm super happy for the weekend, only two more weeks of school until the summer break. i always feel like i isolate myself way more then i mean too during summer breaks, but i also think alot of that stems from the fact that i barely like anyone genuinely. i can name 3 people at the moment that i seriously enjoy being around and having conversations with. that's probably an issue but i'm not going to drop my friends just because i don't like them alot of the time.
recently i've been trying this thing where i distance myself more from people that i don't want to talk to. i used to be so scared of being left behind and isolated that i would answer every message seconds after it sent, even if i didn't want to talk to that person. i've been trying to let messages wait unless i genuinely want to respond that second, conversations online don't have to be initiated immediately and you can take a few minutes to reply and it isn't a big deal. it's also helped me not freak out when people don't answer me instantly.
i've been really enjoying drawing and painting recently, if i finish any pieces and i like them i'll probably post them at the end of the blog but i haven't yet. as the days go on i'm reminded of how much i really hate everyone around me, that probably sounds really really bad but i just can't help it. i can't bring my self to care about anything really and i can't bring myself to want to talk to people constantly, i want to go to counselling again but my mum is so busy i feel like a pain asking for something like that. but, the longer i wait the more i resent the people around me. which sucks. i'm excited for the summer break so i have an excuse not to talk to anyone and sit alone for a month and abit.
todays question, do you ever find it hard to care? was there a time where you knew something was important but couldn't care less for some reason?
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2/07/2026 - 6:04pm
i woke up pretty late for school today, it starts around 8:00-8:30am and i got there aroundd 10:30am? it was my half day since i go home when we have pe ( because i have chronic fatigue! its mega ass, i'll just pass out if i do pe ) so i was only in school for one lesson.
i added a chatbox to the website! please feel free to comment literally anything, it'll motivate me to keep updating this website regularly. i wanna add some more decor stuff before i start with the other parts of the site, if anybody reading has any ideas of what i can add, comment in the chatbox and i'll probably add it!
todays question, is warm milk gross or good?
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1/07/2026 - 5:52pm
first blog post, old website was ackshu. fullfatmilk will now be my new personal website since i wasn't happy w the previous websites layout!!
